UNEMPLOYED… I QUIT MY $1K A WEEK JOB!
Hello lovely, I hope this finds you well.
I have neglected you, I’ll admit it. It’s been well over a year since I dropped into this space with the tale of a new relationship, full to the brim with love and learnings. How are you? I’m sure things have shifted for you in that period as well, 2020 has been something else.
If you’ve been following along on Instagram, you’ll know that recently I graduated from the Institute of Integrative Nutrition as an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach and relaunched my website (so fun but madly time consuming!), integrating my new knowledge and skills with my existing bringing about new packages and ways to work with me. More on that later…
The real reason I’m popping in today, is to share with you something I’ve kept under wraps for the last 4 weeks, before I share it with everyone online.
I QUIT MY JOB!
Yep, you read that right, 4 weeks ago I resigned on my 6 year service anniversary from my $1000 a week, stable, keep for life kinda job, with no next job to go to. W I L D, I know.
Let me explain…
If you’re reading this and didn’t realise that coaching wasn’t my full time job, let me catch you up to speed. Since I graduated school in 2011, I’ve worked in administration. Straight from completion of my traineeship, I went into full time work and never looked back. I FULLY adopted the mentality that you had to be on the grind, jobs were not meant to be enjoyed and that money far outweighed job satisfaction or dare I even say passion. It wasn’t until 2016 that I started realising there were problems with my ‘adopted’ mindset.
In this period, I was at my heaviest physically (not that that is a predetermining factor to ANYTHING), however it came with an array of health concerns, both physically and mentally. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt healthy, or where I would even begin to make a change. I started researching and made the decision to change the way I was eating and start moving my body. That one small change, even though it was a major mental shift I would come to realise, paved the way for me to be here, writing this.
From there, I stumbled (yes, literally stumbled) across an Instagram post explaining what a Life Coach was and recommending an academy to study with. I’d never even heard of a Life Coach before, but it stayed with me and wasn’t long before I enrolled and started studying. Over the course of the next 12 months, I lost 10 kilograms, finished studying and started my own business (with paying clients). I will note here, that I had already heard of a Health Coach and IIN, but it didn’t feel right at the time so I kept on looking, cue BYCA!
Fast forward a couple of years and I’d kept steadily getting clients, but no where near enough to sustain an income full time in my business. I knew that my full time job had a lot to do with that, but at the time I couldn’t see a way to transition across because of the weight I’d placed in the money I was earning. Then BAM, I was single and my full time job became my stability, coaching business on the back burner and completely unable to mentally comprehend a life without my stable, secure, full time job.
It wasn’t until 8 months into my new relationship, a whole 18 months later, that I started exploring the idea of coaching and further study again. The niggle in the back of my mind that admin just wasn’t for me had never gone away, and the environment I worked in was only getting worse. I trusted my gut, IIN had a sale and I enrolled, which brings me to July 2020 of this year.
Things in that job, upon reflection, never got any better, and slowly but surely tightened the grip on my mental health, day by day winding me up like a pressure cooker. It’s funny now that I look back, how much my mind immediately jumped in to protect me. So much suppressed and ignored just to function for what I perceived to be essential in my life. It was almost impossible for me to show up within my coaching business because of how taxing that day job was, and my passion slowly but surely simmered out, while my mental health suffered dramatically. Issue after issue was thrown at me in that job, day after day I would come home crying, spend nights awake riddled with stress and anxiety and guaranteed I would get up every day and place myself back into that toxic environment, knowing it would get worse and waiting for the next bomb to drop, because I NEEDED that money.
I lived in deep denial about the toll it was taking and ignored all of the beautiful guidance I was given steering me away from it because I had intertwined my identity with it. Let that sink in. I intertwined my identity, my happiness and my worth as a person with a job because of the amount of money I got in my bank every week and the ‘perks’ that came with it. Stability, security, job for life, setting myself up for the future, maternity leave, long service, RDO and the list goes on. I had chosen to continue placing myself in that environment for 6 years justifying the pros, until one night after one of the worst days I’d ever had in that job, I woke myself up from my sleep hysterically crying. I had been so emotionally impacted that day, my integrity and worth grinded down so badly that after crying myself to sleep, I woke myself up the same way and physically couldn’t get out of bed the next day. I looked in the mirror and I didn’t recognise myself anymore.
That night will stay with me for life, because it was the first time I truely realised that I just couldn’t do it anymore. My health and happiness had to be worth more, surely. I thought about what I would say to a friend or a client who was experiencing the same thing and there was no scenario on this planet that would have me advise someone to stay.
It wasn’t long after that, that I impulsively made the decision, with a lot of love and nurturing from my beautiful cousin and boyf, to rip the bandaid off and resign, even though I had nothing to go to next. The experience was fucked, I’m not going to lie. Waves upon waves of rollercoaster emotions, all fear projecting, because I’d never in my life had the courage to trust that the right thing would come if I got out of my own way, and fully opened myself up to receiving, nor had I ever not had a job as an adult. I also had no living proof that a decision like this wouldn’t come back to bite me in the arse and I couldn’t compare my situation to anyone else’s because I knew no one that had experienced the same thing. Funny that.
I’m sharing this with you today, fully transparent, to hopefully plant a seed in your pretty little head. If you, like so many others out there, jumped into a job because it was the norm, and find yourself struggling daily because it’s just not right, know that you aren’t stuck and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Know that you can take back control of your life, you are worth so much more than you are receiving and that there are ways of making an income where passion, purpose and your happiness are at the forefront. Even if you’ve never seen it done before, or you, like I was, are stuck in a mindset that ‘things like that won’t happen for someone like me’, they can and they will if you want them enough.
Since I resigned, I can tell you that all of the fears I had around money and success have been extinguished ten fold. More money than I could have expected has come, more opportunities than I knew were available have landed in my lap and all of the reasons why for so long I held onto that job for dear life, have since evaporated, I just had to get out of my own way.
This brings me to my final offering for you. My entire coaching business and my biggest joy have been built on the back of my passion in life, which is helping you find yours. What I would have given all those years ago to have had the space to explore what my passion was with someone who had already navigated that path and had the ability to hold me in that space while I found my way to it. It would be my absolute honour to be that person for you. If the sound of that sparks a little niggle in your stomach, you can check out my newest offerings (told you I’d come back to it!) here.
And just for being here, I’m offering you a special discount for the next month, a further 5% off either my 3 or 6 month packages if you decide coaching with me is for you. I trust wholeheartedly in your discernment.
Deep in gratitude,
Ready to work with me? You can book your complimentary, one hour Health History Session (no strings attached) here.